Friday, November 30, 2012

Let There be a Fluffy Light...Eventually

If you are a Pinterest fan then you have probably seen this fixture. I thought it was cool and decided to give it a try. Don't you think it will look good over my new bed?

I picked up the lantern light fixture at Target in their college collection. I then grabbed two packages (200 total) of coffee filters. I really wanted the natural ones but I guess Target doesn't carry them. I thought the tan would complement my room better.

I spent hours with a hot glue gun adhering them to the lantern. I quickly discovered 200 filters only covered approximately half of the light. So back to the store for another 300 I went. Looking back at the examples, I think was spacing them too closely but I was committed at that point. (P.S. Don't judge me for my messy counters)

Several hours later and having caught up on all my back episodes of Hart of Dixie and NCIS I finished applying the new filters.

So now, I've applied 500 coffee filters and I still have bald spots. I'm going to have to go pick up a few hundred more.

I have to  admit, this half done project has been sitting on my desk now for weeks. It has been so time-consuming and I lack the attention span for repetive tasks. I truly love how it is coming out but would NEVER do another one.

So, stay tuned for the final results. I'll get it finished...eventually. Maybe just so I can get it off my desk!

Friday, November 23, 2012

Very Thankful

Our Thanksgiving holiday is celebrated at my grandma's house almost every year. I have offered to host the past two years, but because most of my immediate family lives with my grandma we have held it there. That and my stairs. My grandma does not want to deal with the stairs. She would rather cook.
Gathered around the Thanksgiving table were my Grandma Ruthie, my mom (Nana Cindy to the kids, my brother and his wife, their daughters-Soulea and Emerald, and my family. Here are few shots of the afternoon including the goofy shots as everyone showed off for the camera.
Despite the everyday chaos, I have a lot ot be thankful for including:
  •  My husband. Ken supports me even when he's not sure about the choice I'm making. He is fantastic about cleaning the house and helping make sure Bailey gets to soccer practice during the week. He loves me unconditionally, crazy and all!
  • My mother. My mom is always there for me even when she's not feeling well. She watches my kids, gets Anique on the bus several days a week and is almost always up for for a spontaneous trip to Joann Fabrics.
  • Bailey. Bailey is a hard working kid. He has been becoming more responsible all the time. He is great with his cousins and has been getting more patient with his sister too. I'm proud of all he has accomplished.
  • Anique. She is very sweet with her friends and very well behaved at school. She loves to learn new things and is always "researching" in her spare time. She is entertaining and hilarious to watch.
  • A home. I am thankful to have a home to return to each night. One that is dry, warm and full of family.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Time to Jump

The most important thing about having goals is having one. ~Geoffrey F. Albert

Most people are paralyzed by fear. Overcome it and you take charge of your life and your world. ~Mark Victor Hansen

These quotes pretty much sum up where I am in life. Yes, I have dreams but I need to set concrete goals to achieve them. I have a dream list of things I want to accomplish but I need to break them down into their itty bitty essences before they will come to fruition.

I am paralyzed by fear. The fear of losing. The fear of failing. The fear of not hitting my goal. The fear of letting down my husband. The fear of not being able to support our family. The fear of displeasing someone or inconveniencing them. Yep, I've got a whole lot of fear stored up. I "try" different things regularly but never put it all out there, kind of setting my self up to not hit my goals...I need to let go of my fears and take the jump. Not worry about the fall. There might be something good at the bottom. And the fall will be fun. I'd probably sleep better at night too.

I'm at a crossroads. I need to choose one goal. Make it a good one and break it down. I need to have faith in myself and those around me. I need to breathe. I can do this.

Nope, I'm not waiting for New Year's either...

Sunday, November 18, 2012

More Soccer

 This weekend Bailey's game was in Pasco. It was a loooong drive over. We've done longer road trips but this drive seem longer than most. I would love to say it was filled with fun games and great conversation but it was mostly quiet with poor Ken driving and Bailey and I alternating between reading and sleeping.

The team they were playing is ranked first in their division. Until last weekend, they were undefeated and had not had any goals scored against them (the number two team won last weekend). The boys played hard and scored a goal in the first half. They played a hard and very physical game. In the end the other team snuck ahead by just one goal.

B was upset that they lost but I'm proud of hard they played and how they worked together.

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Soccer Mom

This is pretty much how I spent my entire summer and fall. It's soccer season which means practice two to three nights a week and games on the weekend. This year Bailey has also been refereeing, which means another three to four games each weekend to get him too.
We were blessed with a beautiful summer and fall. It's really only recently gotten cold and wet. Seattle? Wet? Say it's not true! Games this season have taken us to new fields and we've made new friends on this new team.
He's worked really hard this year and I'm so proud of him for taking on refereeing this year. It's a difficult thing to make calls with parents, coaches and players who are so invested. He did a great job this season and conducted himself very maturely.
I'm so glad the rec season has ended. I'm proud of him and his willingness to get up so early to referee but where he goes, I drive. He has a couple more games this season before his team is done but those are more enjoyable.
I hope your fall was just as exciting, or more so!

Monday, November 12, 2012

Update and Halloween Pics

So I took the first step today. If not a leap, it was at least jump into the unknown. Oh my! There is a huge sense of relief at having finally committed but still anxiety at wondering what comes next. What will I be doing next?

Anyhoo, moving on...(or back as the case may be.) As you can tell, I'm still trying to catch up with the pictues I took in the month I was offline. Here's a peek into Halloween around our house.

We went to a new place for our pumpkins this year. There is a new farm in Snohomish called Thomas Farms. Not only did they have endless fields of pumpkins but they had a ton of activities for the kids. We didn't try a everything but we did find three pretty cool pumpkins.

 It's great when your teenage son is still a kid at heart and wants a ride in the wheelbarrow.
 Roasted corn with lots of butter
 Yes, they do have parents. I really need to stop making that face. I'm going to get wrinkles between my eyebrows.
How strong is dad? Three jumbo pumpkins and a couple of kids.
 Ask a 4 year old what they want to be for Halloween...Santa Claus of course!
 Anique wanted to be a worm coming out of an apple. She was not happy that everyone thought her head was another leaf.
Vincent was a power ranger. Not sure which one. Thankfully, my kids never really got into the Power Rangers fad.


Changes are scary. I'm at this point right now where I know it is necessary but I am feeling almost paralyzed by the anxiety and fear of what comes next. Semi-permanent feeling of nausea. Too many tears lately. Am I making the best decision? Is this what is right for my family? Am I a quitter? Should I wait until I have all the details worked out. Until there is absolutely no chance of failure. Does that scenario even exist?

I don't know if I should take the leap and fly. I worry I will just go crashing to the bottom of the cliff taking my loved ones with me.

The changes is needed and I am blessed to have a husband who supports me in my decisions. It is a positive emotional change. It will give me the opportunity to learn new things. It will mean starting over. Okay, here goes..

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Hanging Around

This fall has been flying by. I took an unintentional month off from blogging. Kind of lost my rhythm. Bailey has been refereeing this soccer season in addition to his own games. As a result, I'm spending a lot of time at soccer fields and playing mommy chauffeur.
He did U8 and U9 games primarily and so we spent a lot of time at elementary schools when he was working for Silverlake.
These pictures were taken at Silverlake Elementary. I went to school here for my 3rd and 4th grades. Anique thought that was pretty cool.
I took Anique and Soulea with me one day so they could burn off some of their never ending energy on the playground. They climbed and hung like monkeys and when they were doing something cool there was a call of, "take a picture of this!" Obviously, they are not camera shy.
Soulea spent a lot of time upside down.
 The girls were challenging each other to see who could name the most states on the U.S. map.
It was cold but very sunny so there was lots of squinting. I tried to make a shadow so Anique would actually open her eyes but no such luck.
Well that's all for now, but I'll be uploading some more pictures of what's been going on this past month.